The Snake River Page 5
Chapter Four
It was an uneventful trip: up the Platte to the Sweetwater with the one episode of Indian trouble, up the Sweetwater to South Pass with good water, good grass all the way, no troubles. At Pacific Spring they celebrated their crossing of the continental divide. Miss Jewel and Miss Upping made lemonade from crystallized lemon they’d brought all the way from St. Louis. Flare had a yen to celebrate the crossing the way he usually did, whiskied up, but he drank the lemonade, without sugar, sour, like Miss Upping’s personality. He told himself it made him a new man.
It was Flare’s pride that it was an uneventful trip. The better he did his job, the less eventful it would be.
He rode out looking for Indian sign morning, noon, and night. Dan Full went along for a while, and learned something. Then Dr. Full decided he didn’t like his stepson aping a barbarian, and made the lad stay in camp.
At the Big Sandy Flare himself caused an event: He decided to try the short way to Fort Hall. It would save days—straight west to the Green, up LaBarge Creek and down John Grey’s River and through the mountains onto the Snake River. They might get to the fort by the time the Bay outfit took the furs down the Snake to Walla Walla.
If that happened, they could travel in safety. Maybe they would even be willing to travel without Michael Devin O’Flaherty, who was getting weary of pork-eaters, and felt his summer’s case of itchy feet coming on. And another itch, too, fleshly.
The only trouble was the forty miles between the Big Sandy and the Siskadee—no water. He told them how they would do it. Stay all day at the Big Sandy, get the people, horses, and mules well watered and fresh. Fill every keg, can, and bottle with liquid. Set out in the cool of the evening, ride through the night, get to the river before the heat of the day.
He watched them as they rode. The danger was the mind, not the body. You thought about the two or three hours until you could rest and sip out of a keg. Not long—the body could wait two or three hours easily. Did wait, when you knew water was plenty. Didn’t want to wait when you knew it wasn’t.
If you got to fretting, you made a problem. Went stiff in the saddle. Made your mount work harder. Made yourself work harder. Used up more energy. Sweated. Needed more water.
It could get worse. You looked out across the sagebrush flats and saw no end. Desert, you told yourself. Your mind tried not to remember the scare stories you’d heard about desert, desperate men, horrible deaths. You got panicky. Sang that to the horse right through your body, made him edgy. Burned horse and rider up.
Not that it was fantasy, entirely. Deserts were dangerous, you bet. Once, Flare had killed a horse to drink its blood. He’d heard stories of men who did that to their compañeros, but he didn’t believe them.
He needed to help the fantasies of the fearful. So Flare stopped and let people behind catch up, then rode ahead, stopped again, checking, chatting with each person, helping all relax.
He flirted with the women, all but Annie Lee Full, who was too sober-sided to enjoy it. He told the men jokes. He told one about ye olde sod several times.
An Irish rebel sneaked up on an English camp one dawn, looking for a shot. He saw the British general come out of his tent. The rebel drew a bead. But the general was admiring God’s dawn, and the rebel couldn’t shoot even a Brit at such a moment. The general walked toward the creek. The rebel drew a bead. But then the general dropped his drawers, and the rebel couldn’t shoot even a Brit at such a vulnerable moment. The general relieved himself. He stood, pulled his pants up. The rebel shot him dead. Bugger insulted ye olde sod.
They rested, drank, watered the animals. Went on.
Flare sang Irish songs to keep them easy:
’Tis the last rose of summer
Left blooming alone;
All her lovely companions
Are faded and gone;
No flow’r of her kindred,
No rosebud is nigh,
To reflect back her blushes
Or give sigh for sigh.
I’ll not leave thee, thou lone one,
To pine on the stem;
Since the lovely are sleeping,
Go, sleep thou with them.
Thus kindly I scatter
Thy leaves o’er that bed,
Where thy mates of the garden
Lie scentless and dead.
So soon may I follow
When friendship decay,
And from love’s shining circle
The gems drop away!
When true hearts lie wither’d
And fond ones are flown,
Oh, how would I inhabit
This bleak world alone.
Middle of the night now. They rested, drank, and watered the animals. Went on. They would do well enough as long as Flare kept them fighting real troubles and not imaginary ones.
When his fuzzy brain wouldn’t bring back any more fine Irish songs, he switched to a voyageur song or three, sprightly affairs, with a rhythm of paddles dripping, or hoofs clopping.
Joy to thee, my brave canoe,
There’s no wing so swift as you;
Right and left the bubbles rise—
Right and left the pine wood flies;
Birds and clouds and tide and wind,
We shall leave ye all behind.
(chorus)
Joy to thee, my brave canoe,
There’s no wing so swift as you,
Joy to thee, my brave canoe.
There’s no wing so swift as you.
Gently, now, my brave canoe,
Keep your footing sure and true,
For the rapid close beneath,
Leaps and shouts his song of death;
Now one plunge and all is done,
Now one plunge, the goal is won.
(chorus)
Joy to thee, my brave canoe,
There’s no wing so swift as you,
Joy to thee, my brave canoe,
There’s no wing so swift as you.
Finally, a little before dawn, they used the last of their water on themselves and the horses. They slept an hour or so, and ate a little. As they packed up, he spoke to them about not losing control of the animals. The horses and mules would smell the water well before they saw the river. And want to take off for blessed liquid. Horses suffering from lack of water were weak and didn’t look where they were going. Too often they fell—sometimes they broke their legs, or the bones of their riders. Don’t let them have their heads, truly.
Before they got within smelling distance, Flare tied the pack animals nose to tail and took the lead line himself.
Soon the mounts began to act up. In a couple of minutes, one by one, every rider but Flare lost control of his horse. Pell-mell they went for the river.
Flare let his animals come up to a trot but kept tight rein. Until he heard the screams from the river.
He dropped the lead line and put the spurs to his horse. Mad you are, lad, he thought, eyes on rough, stony desert ground and mind trying to shut off the screams.
They were by the near bank and…and it was over. The screams stopped.
Thanks to Dr. Full.
Annie Lee Full stood there in the water waist deep, her skirts floating around her like flower petals. Her horse was standing, drinking, at the far bank. Dr. Full had hold of his wife’s hand. She was gasping and wheezing like she’d never get air again. But her hair wasn’t even wet.
Flare counted mounts and riders and got the right number.
Not hard to figure out what happened. The horse, out of control, jumped in where it happened to hit the bank, which was where the river happened to be deep. Mrs. Full, her leg wrapped around that silly sidesaddle horn, lost her seat. The horse blithely swam itself to shallower water and started drinking.
Mrs. Full, for the moment, was held up by her skirts. When they got soaked, they would drag her under, whether she could swim or not. So she screamed and screamed. Funny how quiet, controlled ones shattered when trouble hit them.
Dr. Full went off the b
ank some way below Mrs. Full, no telling how far. Took him a minute or so to swim the horse upstream to near where she was. At that point his horse got its footing and stood. Mrs. Full did the same.
“All safe, then,” he said.
Dr. Full continued to murmur gently to his wife. But he was looking triumphantly at Flare.
“Well done, Dr. Full,” Flare said pleasantly.
The power-hungry of the world don’t lack for nerve, he thought.
The last night before Fort Hall, Flare had to make his try. He wasn’t a lad afraid of the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune. And to have one white woman, well, it seemed a temptation.
If he couldn’t put it off on drink, he could blame it on restless balls. He was naught but an animal anyway, the way they saw it.
He and Miss Jewel had developed a custom of walking a little after dinner. He suspected both of them took pleasure not only in the other’s company, but also in tweaking Dr. Full.
This evening he took her arm, lest she step into a crack in the lava rock. “Nasty stuff,” he said, “a bloody nuisance.”
“I’ve been thinking you might like to hear some songs in Gaelic,” he said. “’Tis a lovely language, and a language of love.”
“Wonderful,” she said. He’d recited Thomas Moore poems to her, and sung the grand songs Moore had made from Gaelic tunes and English words. Now something new. He held her hand while she sat on a boulder. He always stood while he sang.
He sang softly of a lass calling her lover back to her, in a world that one day, inevitably, takes the lover away forever. Michael Devin O’Flaherty let his light, graceful tenor spin the words ethereally into the last light in the plum-colored sky.
Is go dee tu mavourneen slaun
Shule, shule, shule, aroon
Shule go suckir agus shule go une
Shule go deen aurrus aguseilig lume
Is go de tu mavourneen slaun.
Then he sang it once more in English:
I wish I were on yonder hill,
’Tis there I’d set and cry my fill,
Till every tear would turn a mill.
(chorus)
And safe for aye, my darling be.
Come, come, come, oh, love.
Come quickly and softly,
Come to the door and away we’ll go,
And safe for aye, my darling be.
I’ll sell my rock, I’ll sell my reel,
I’ll sell my only spinning wheel,
To buy for my love a sword of steel.
(chorus)
And safe for aye, my darling be.
Come, come, come, oh, love,
Come quickly and softly,
Come to the door and away we’ll go,
And safe for aye, my darling be.
I’ll dye my petticoats, I’ll dye them red,
And round the world, I’ll beg my bread,
Until my parents shall wish me dead.
(chorus)
And safe for aye, my darling be,
Come, come, come, oh, love,
Come quickly and softly,
Come to the door and away we’ll go,
And safe for aye, my darling be.
When he finished, he could see her eyes gleaming wet.
He lifted her chin gently and kissed her.
She turned away, pushed him away.
“No, Mr. O’Flaherty.” It was a gentle rebuke, not stern. But a rebuke.
“I’m drawn to you, Miss Jewel,” he said. He’d never felt so witless.
“Yes. I’m attracted to you,” she answered softly, gently, yet forthrightly. “I’m not going to pursue it.”
She reached and took his hand.
“May I tell you why?”
“Add to my torment, lass?”
“You’re a man of the world, Mr. O’Flaherty,” she said throatily, and smiling. “You’re a fine man. I’ve known you wanted us to be lovers. I can’t, and it’s not just a matter of wedlock. I’d like you really to understand me.
She gripped his hand in both of hers. “You’re as fine a man as…as a man can become on his own, without God’s grace.”
“Unredeemed Man,” Flare murmured.
“Yes, exactly. That’s not enough,” she asserted. “Only God can lift us up to be…more than human, can remake us like Him. That’s the kind of man I want.
“But I treasure you,” she went on. “I treasure your company. I like flirting with you, and I mean to flaunt it in front of them all the way to the mission…and then say a fond good-bye.”
Flare withdrew his hand. “It may be there’s a brigade going from Fort Hall down the Snake soon. In that case, the good-bye might be sooner.”
In the moonlight he saw the hurt on her face. “So…you see what I mean by unredeemed?” She tried to recover her sense of humor, tried to chuckle. “This was love ’em and leave ’em.”
But they were too late at Fort Hall. The outfit had gone to Walla, and the clerk had no plans to send another one soon. It was strictly buy beans and flour, trade worn-out horseflesh for fresh, and hit the trail.
Miss Jewel told Flare how glad she was. Now they’d get to flirt all the way to the Willamette.
Part Two
A PILGRIMAGE
Chapter Five
They called him Web, and he hated it. The name came from his mother’s brother, Rockchuck, when Web was born. Rockchuck immediately saw the skin between the baby’s two big toes and the next ones, like duck’s feet, and mockingly called him Web. A sure sign that he was the son of his father, Rockchuck cracked. And his father was a no-good divo, a white man.
Besides, Web knew he should have outgrown his childhood name by now. He deserved a name he had earned, or one given him from his first coup. But he had no vision. He had purified and prepared himself, twice, and gone onto the mountain and deprived himself of food and water, twice, but he had seen nothing.
He also had no coup. He had only once been invited on even a pony raid, and then permitted only to hold the ponies while other men stole Crow horses.
Also, his hair was rust-colored, not black, like a true Shoshone’s. Another bitter gift of his white-man father, as everyone knew.
It was all a disgrace. He was eighteen years old, and a disgrace.
These people mocked him, and would always mock him. Numah-divo, they called him. It was the people’s word for half-breed, their word for Shoshone spliced onto the word for white man. They could make similar words that meant Shoshone-black white man and Shoshone Mexican. All were words of scorn. Web was the first Numah-divo of his people.
But tonight he would earn another name. This very night.
In his own mind he kept another name for himself anyway: Sima Untuasie. When he found out why he was named Web, he asked his grandmother, Black Shawl (his un kakau, his mother’s mother), whether his mother had spoken before she died, shortly after bearing him.
Yes, his grandmother had said. She murmured, “Sima untuasie.” My first son.
His grandmother added, “She loved you.”
He liked the Sima part: first. He was something new, a Numah-divo, yes, the first, the only. Sima Numah-divo.
Tonight he would show them.
He was waiting now, frustrated. Waiting for his hiantseh (friend) Yu-huup, which meant Fatty. He knew a lot of being a young man was waiting—waiting to go on your first pony raid, waiting to get to help steal ponies instead of just holding the horses, waiting to get into a real fight, waiting to get a coup, waiting to marry, waiting to be recognized for what you are, a man.
He had been tortured with waiting. He would make it end tonight. If Yu-huup ever came.
He bent his attention back to the rock. He’d come to this outcropping because the warm lava rock drew the lizards, and he could hear the shoosh of the creek churning by. He found flowing water soothing. And he liked to catch lizards with his quick hands. While his friends clowned around and missed and acted like they didn’t care, he could catch ten, two hands’ worth, sometimes mor
e, without having one dart away. Like the sound of the water, catching them eased him mind. When he was watching a lizard, he thought of nothing, not his intolerable situation, not his future, nothing at all. It took his mind off the festering within him.
Tonight.
He festered all the time. He raged half the time. He hated his life.
Web hated the trapper who fathered him. Back when the Frenchies first came to hunt beaver on the Snake River, this man had spent a winter with his people, with his mother, Pinyon. When spring came, the trapper simply left, abandoning a people who had adopted him, and abandoning a child in his mother’s belly.
The Frenchie didn’t give a goddamn. That was what Web always called the man out loud. Goddamn Hairy. He chuckled whenever he said it. The whites said each white man had two names—not a secret name and a public name, like a Shoshone, but two public names, which they called first and last. No one knew his father’s name, so Web gave him one: Goddamn. The second one the people gave him because he had Inqa-moe-zho, red hair all over his face. Rockchuck said the fool accepted the name without a complaint, didn’t even know it was an insult.
Goddamn was one of the few divo (white-man) words Web had learned, and he knew it well. The other trappers who had come Americans, they called themselves—had told Web all about it. It was a word of bad medicine, a curse. It meant plagued by the spirits. The Americans seemed amused at his interest, but they joined in. Hairy was a member of another white-man tribe, they said, a Frenchie, so they goddamned him heartily. They explained that not all Frenchies were Frenchmen, some were Englishmen, but Web didn’t understand that.
Another bad-medicine word Web learned was son of a bitch—son of a dog. But that didn’t seem so bad to Web. It might be a man’s medicine to be given power by a dog in a dream, so to be the spirit child of a dog. So Web preferred goddamn—cursed by the spirits.
In his mind he called his father Goddamn instead of Hairy always. Then maybe his father’s woah would burn when he pissed, or the Crows would steal all his horses, or his children would all grow up to hate him.
Web hated him. One day the goddamn son of a bitch would come back and Web would show him.
Like tonight. Tonight he would show everybody.
It started the summer after the big fight against the Blackfeet in Pierre’s Hole, the year the white men called 1833. That summer Web went with his band to the big trading fair on the Siskadee, what the Americans called rendezvous. There Web talked with white men a lot for the first time. And when the people left that rendezvous, he found out how deep was his humiliation.